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snowblindmods) wrote2015-04-06 10:43 pm
snowblindmods) wrote2015-04-06 10:43 pm
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Lutha Pahr | OC | Reserved (4/4)
Much of what Lutha feels and does comes from a twisted, unhealthy sense of pride. While a small portion of it does lie on his noble upbringing and the expectations of greatness that were fed to him from every angle, most of his hubris remains entirely self-taught. His disconnect from his family was entirely his own choice, and the world quickly taught him what the consequences of that choice would be, refusing to offer help for help's sake or to stroke his ego for him. So, over eight years, he's learned to stroke it himself, forcing himself to stay cynically aware of the world and disconnected from those that float through it. What matters most is his own individual ability to live, which, while necessary in a land of survival, still can come across overly selfish and cruel. His confidence is strongly based in this, refusing to be morphed by any other creature and taking great pride in working completely on his own. He is not kind or charitable for the sake of it and easily ignores attempts made in kind to him, sometimes going the extra mile to react angrily and be called out for it - after all, he would rather be seen as cross or paranoid than pitiable, and he will do what he has to to keep it that way. Though he has a natural taste for leadership and keeping the view of the whole in his mind through stress, Lutha will often press it away for the sake of disgust that he's following in his father's footsteps, resorting to being the middle man or completely absent from conflicts outside a few insults or cross words. It makes him aloof, but completely by his own choice - forcing what could be a positive trait to stay at the sidelines in favor of his own narrow desires and goals.
Related to this is just how stubborn Lutha can be. His choices are his choices, and he would rather take a knife to the lungs than bend to another's will. Whether it's his racist views on those he considers too different, the emotional walls he puts up to cope, how forcefully he controls the bargain of a trade or how madly he clings to his desire for vengeance, there is very little that can be done to turn Lutha away from someone he has determined as true, safe, or proper. His boundaries in particular adjust very little outside of what is needed for day to day life; to be vulnerable is not something Lutha knows how to properly deal with based on his lack of support growing up, so he copes by forcing people away and refusing to let them close, not budging unless purposeful attempts are made against him. Personal relationships are difficult, and lasting ones even more so. To earn his loyalty, though, while incredibly rare, is never forgotten. Should someone he consider close to him find themselves in danger, Lutha would not hesitate to rush to their aid and beyond, despite any protests he might receive. If someone has earned his trust to that level, they are just as important as any other choice he consciously makes, and he will not abandon that.
The largest problem Lutha has is how much he has allowed anger to control every other action and reaction in his life. At his core, Lutha is an emotional person who has an admirable boldness and assertiveness for things that matter to him. But life has forced an unhealthy balance in how he copes with his feelings. Anger was the last scar left by his former life, and anger is what fuels him for a goal of revenge in the future, so anger quickly became front and center. Often left to his own devices without a support system he trusts, Lutha instead bottles much of his other emotions, to the point that feeling angry is the only thing he knows how to address without feeling completely overwhelmed. This makes him touchy, confrontational, and even physically violent at times, proving very easy to lead into a righteous fury should the right buttons be pressed. He holds deep and often irrational grudges, rarely caring for forgiveness and often refusing for a resolution at all to his own problems because of how much easier it is to stay upset. He has no problems with mingling blunt truth and remarkable lies, so long as the end result leaves him comfortable. While he does have an inward need to guide poor decisions and discussions back on track, his attempts are often tactless, harsh, and condescending, unapologetic and unafraid to resort to insults and derogatory behavior to keep someone who angers him under his foot. Even well-meaning acts or remarks to him will be brushed off or bickered at.
Combining his emotional state with his overall willfulness, Lutha still exists in an immature mind. Rather than using his boldness or leadership, he defaults to what he has decided he cannot be and cannot have, forcing himself to be inflexible, unobservant and unsympathetic. Even outside the walls of nobility, he remains openly ignorant, refusing to look at things even a little differently until he has enough obvious evidence to prove it for himself. This extends both to ideas and to people - Lutha is an enormous bigot, seeing his race as the top of the heap by the blessing of the gods themselves, and will not hesitate to address one of a lower or unfamiliar race as though they are trash or items to be used. This immaturity also weaves into how fearful Lutha is. Even though he has the boldness to power through his fears, he instead lets them control him and guide him back to his anger instead, lacking the emotional footholds to help him cope in more productive ways. While he has the ability to change, it's deeply buried and would require a large upheaval of his thinking or danger to his life to see any true progress.
But behind all of this, ultimately, is a core sense of determination that holds his true potential for growth. Whether it's a mix of his pride or the past he wants to forget, he never ignores his goals and will do downright horrible things to see them through. He refuses to run for anything that isn't his own survival - not out of courage, but dedication, not wanting to be proven wrong by simply stepping away. This can get him into enormous amounts of trouble, but he faces it with his chin high and feet planted. Even with how he tries to separate himself from others, he still carries a flair for injustice - despite how he acknowledges the unfairness of the world, he won't stand for those that use others blatantly or make the same foolish mistakes over and over, and will barge right into the situation with harsh words or actions if he thinks it will prevent something messier. It ties in with just how idealistic Lutha wants to be, an almost hypocritical contradiction to how life has morphed him to accept the status quo of his surroundings. What he hates of the world can be easily summed up as flaws in society that he doesn't know how to deal with, that he knows can be better, but still are things he doesn't have the flexibility to properly address. As angry and degrading as he can get, Lutha still wants to have a future not so coldly determined by facts. He doesn't want nobility to keep living off the suffering of the poor, or for the poor to so openly disdain those that were born to better circumstance. He doesn't want the pure act of staying alive to have to be a battle against death every day. And, most importantly, he wants to amount to more than he is - more a stain on the wall, more than his scare tactics and scars, and far more than the wayward fool that he believes his father would call him. So he tries, fails, and tries again, not wanting to wait and wonder how misguided he might be. Even if he consistently prioritizes himself, he still cannot sit by and do nothing at all. He is a man of action, not of thought, impatient for a chance to change things.
Flavor Abilities:
Suitability:
Being from a land that already is in a borderline apocalyptic state, Lutha is not unfamiliar with the stressors of little food and an environment ready to kill you at every turn. What he will have to struggle with is the idea that a person can't do everything on their own for long in Snowblind. Though he's slowly opened up to his team at home, Snowblind will throw him in when he's expecting to walk his final legs to a possible bloody death. Regaining trust in others and opening himself up for the sake of both his own survival and, eventually, the survival of others, will be a big challenge and something he will be forced to learn while in Norfinbury. Should he let down his walls and let some of his leadership qualities come through, he could even shine in more stressful situations.
RP Samples:
A mix of Action/Network, Network, Network
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Let me know if you would like additional samples or clarifications!
ACCEPTED
A standard single-story house with a kitchen, living room, dining room, bathroom, and bedroom. A faded happy birthday banner hangs in the dining room, and with the streamers and cute flowery paper plates stacked on the table, it looks like a child's birthday party was being celebrated. There are even some presents, although each one is open. All of the boxes, including the largest one, are empty, and countless rocks are piled up neatly nearby. The following has been written inside on the door:
"Food
< 1 day's walk SSE
Regularly Resupplied"
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Re: ACCEPTED