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haku mitsumi | the messiah project | reserved
Player Information
Name: Jelle
Age: 23
Contact Info: queeningsquare[at]gmail[dot]com, aim: Lunixhime,
Other Characters: n/a
Character Information
Name: Haku Mitsumi
Canon: The Messiah Project (sometimes just called Messiah)
Age: They never officially state his age in the canon itself, but considering he seems to be somewhere in his early to mid-twenties I'll go with the actor's age, which is 25.
Gender: Male
Canon Point: At the moment he's about to kill himself during Hisui no Shou.
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Haku grew up under fairly shitty circumstances. As a young kid he had to deal with his mother's lover who constantly abused him and his older brother Sou. His older brother tried to shield him from the abuse, practically being the only one who cared for him, and brought him simple pleasures like candy (a fact that still seems to remain with Haku even now, considering the copious amount of candy he consumes all the time).
After a while it all went wrong though. During a particularly violent fit the older man started beating up Haku's brother really badly. Haku witnessed it all and called out for him to stop since he was going to end up killing his brother if this kept up, but the man didn't listen. In a fit of emotions, Haku grabbed a heavy object and beat him with it in an attempt to make him stop - but it was too much. The hit ended up killing his mother's lover instead and his older brother proceeded to take the blame instead for what had happened, wanting to protect Haku.
The incident ended up seperating the two of them - especially because of the aftermath, which Haku didn't learn of until much later in his life. The Northern Union, the biggest enemy of the organisation Haku would later join and basically a group of Not Really Great People, came to the brothers to look for a new recruit for an agent provocateur (basically an undercover agent whose primary role is to incite another person to commit an illegal act and/or falsely implicate another person in an illegal act) and wanted to recruit Haku. Sou didn't want to see that happen to his little brother and let himself be taken away in Haku's place.
Left in the world without anyone to take care of him, a young Haku was approached by Ichijima, the leader of the organisation called Sakura that trained people to be spies. Promising that Haku would be able to see his older brother again if he joined the organisation - the one thing he wanted more than anything, especially since he had no clue where his older brother was -, it was not a difficult task to convince Haku to go along.
Not that his time with Sakura was all that much better. Everyone at that organisation is appointed a Messiah: the one person they're allowed to befriend (or a little more than that, wink wonk) and have to work together with at all times. One can imagine that this sort of system makes you heavily dependant on one person for your general stability, and that's exactly what happened. Haku's codependant feelings for his brother instead transferred to his Messiah, except sooner or later disaster struck - Haku's Messiah died on a mission. It's not too strange for members of Sakura to die on missions considering the high levels of danger involved, so it was just routinely brushed off by the organisation as a whole. Not so easily by Haku himself though, but he managed to somehow pull himself through it.
Except then it happened again. After being assigned a new Messiah, the very same thing happened to said Messiah as did to the first. Once more Haku's Messiah died on a mission. And while it's not that strange for people's Messiah to die, for it to happen twice in a row was pretty unique within the organisation. Rumors started buzzing around and Haku started to be called a "jinx" - the guy whose Messiah will always die. It only further isolated him in his grief from everyone around him, turning him in a very aloof sort of person.
But then Haku was assigned a Messiah once more, his third, a new cadet called Eiri Kaidou. Since Haku at this point also believed in his own curse and was fully convinced Eiri would just die because of him too, he tried to keep the other at a distance. It wasn't too hard considering the fact that Eiri was like an angry chihuahua whose buttons were way too easy to press - annoying him and teasing him was the easiest way to keep a safe distance between them. To maybe save Eiri's life and to at the very least save his own feelings from getting hurt over losing a Messiah all over again.
Working together with another Messiah pair they grew fairly close to as friends, Shuusuke Shiba and Souma Gojyo, the pair completed quite a few missions for Sakura, with things more or less remaining the way they were. Haku was still aloof, he was still pushing Eiri away and more or less living life on auto-pilot. It didn't change until they were involved in the Higayama incident - Higayama was one of their enemies that had already tried to mess up quite a few of their missions, but by the time Haku finally came face to face with the guy himself, Higayama revealed that he knew about the whereabouts of Haku's older brother. The reveal hit Haku so hard that he seemed to mentally shut down, being unable to do anything but stand there and stare blankly even as everyone else was fighting around him. It wasn't until Eiri, his Messiah, grabbed him in the middle of a fight with Higayama and yelled at Haku to get back to his senses, to believe in him and listen to him since he was his Messiah.. right before getting shot by Higayama multiple times since it left his back uncovered.
The shock of seeing Eiri shot (and therefore facing the possibility of his Messiah dying once more) was enough to drag Haku out of his haze, since he had become more attached to Eiri than he was telling himself he was going to after all. Higayama told him that his Messiah would always die, so it would be easier to just avoid that pain and come with him and join the Northern Union (Sakura's biggest enemy). Haku refused though, saying he believed Eiri would pull through and telling Higayama off until the latter left.
Eiri did manage to miraculously pull through, surviving all the bullet wounds, and it was this event that brought the two of them together as Messiah. Haku decided he could believe in Eiri despite his jinx and stopped pushing him away as much. (The teasing stayed, though - it was far too entertaining to give up at that point.)
A few more missions later brought them to the point that their friends Souma and Shuusuke had graduated from Sakura, leaving the organisation and therefore cutting all contact with Haku and Eiri according to the rules. In their place Haku was assigned (along with Eiri) to mentor four of the new Sakura cadets and try to train them: Mamoru Shirasaki, Kaito Yuri, Ryo Ariga and Seiren Mamiya.
For a while everything went relatively well in Haku's life like that, but then everything blew up once more. Serizawa, a member of the Northern Union who had tried to mess stuff up with one of their earlier missions, was revealed to actually be Haku's long-lost brother, Sou, who had been taken away by the Northern Union and had quickly gone up through the ranks. Serizawa also revealed that he was the one who had been causing Haku's Messiah to die all along - he was the origin of the 'jinx'. Unable to watch his older brother die despite him being an enemy now and despite what he had done, Haku stopped Eiri from shooting the man during their first confrontation, leading to Serizawa getting away and a small crack starting to emerge in both their relationship and Haku's emotional and mental stability.
The real thing that shook Haku up though came during a mission they were leading the four new cadets through later on. In the middle of the action he lost his ear piece contact with Eiri, and after running into his brother there only a moment later he realised what had happened, and when one of the newer cadets came to him to tell him about it, his suspicions were confirmed - Eiri had died during the mission, adding another dead Messiah to Haku's jinx, not to mention one that Haku had grown even closer to than his previous two Messiah.
Even though Haku didn't shut down the way he did during the Higayama incident, he still was a lot less stable after it. He snapped at people left and right, acted more distant than ever seemed generally jaded about everything (when their boss told him he'd need to be assigned a new Messiah to complete the mission, Haku just snapped back to ask who would die because of him this time). He ended up mostly operating alone, only cooperating with one of their former-enemies-turned-sort-of-good-guy Misu to bring the mission to an end - until Misu betrayed him, that is. Haku was caught off guard by the action, being beaten up by Misu and his subordinates until Eiri suddenly appeared out of nowhere to save him, apparently still alive. In his beaten up stupor Haku tried to reach out for Eiri, but instead passed out from the strain.
After he returned to consciousness, Eiri explained to him that his death had been faked all along as part of the mission and that they couldn't have let Haku in on it. It was the only way to push Haku to go along with the mission and cooperate with Misu, who only fake betrayed him back there so he could get Serizawa to trust him and they could catch Serizawa off guard and capture him that way. Still emotional over the fact that it was all a big plot he was left out of, Haku ran off to confront Serizawa in the place they were keeping him. Serizawa confronted him with the fact that he had only joined the Northern Union to protect Haku and keep him from being taken instead ("I'm the monster you created", he tells Haku), only bringing Haku's emotions to a height - and when Serizawa told Haku to kill him, he couldn't. He pointed his gun at his older brother, but couldn't find it in himself to pull the trigger and kill the big brother that had been so important to him growing up, who he had longed to see again all this time. Even though he knew Serizawa was the enemy, even though he knew Serizawa had been killing his previous Messiah-- even so, he was still his brother. He still saved him, it was still Haku's fault that he became this way, or so Haku told himself.
Realising that it meant his "jinx" would never end this way (because Serizawa would still be alive and doubtlessly find some way to escape since Haku couldn't bear to see him killed), Haku ran away to instead confront Eiri, drawing his gun on him and making it seem like he was just going to kill him himself and be done with it. But at the last moment Haku pointed the gun at his own temple instead, saying that he he decided the only way for the jinx to end was for him to die. He doesn't want to see anyone die for his sake anymore, let alone see Eiri die, so it's better this way.
Just as he's about to pull the trigger, he'll find himself in Norfinbury instead.
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Personality: If you'd just meet Haku normally, it'd be hard to get a good impression of him.
Not that Haku's unsociable necessarily. He knows how to strike up chats and have conversations in general. He can be entirely useful when he's being serious or while talking about business. It's not that he's some sort of quiet wallflower that you just don't notice - no, it's more just since he's so aloof. You could be talking to Haku for hours, and you would probably only realise by the time you walked away from the conversation that you haven't learned a single thing about him in the course of it. For someone who might seem rather open in how easily he speaks, Haku is actually really closed off. He knows how to avoid things and talk around them, how to switch topics to things that are easy for him to talk about, how to avoid anything about him other than surface interests that anyone could notice. You'd be hard-pressed to see Haku being very open in any way; even emotionally he seems to show very little reaction to most things, staying calm even in some dangerous situations and generally not generating expressions that are a whole lot more over the top than the expression equivalent of "oh" at best.
Not that there aren't exceptions to this rule. Haku's very well capable of smiling and grinning, especially when he's teasing people - apparently one of his favourite activities, considering he spends half of his time annoying his Messiah to high hell and back. While it's half since he's so aloof and teasing is a good way to keep people away from him if they get riled up easily, it's clear that Haku also just genuinely enjoys teasing people. He often ends up smiling and grinning victoriously whenever he ends up getting Eiri to jump and stomp his feet at things he's saying or doing. The fact that Haku is relatively shameless sure helps with the teasing. He can drag Eiri into his bed without a second thought, get all up in other people's personal space-- hell, he even moves in for a kiss at one point just to get the other all worked up, and it works perfectly well. Using his height to lean all over other people or use them as arm rests works pretty well for this too, to a point where he sometimes seems to almost unconsciously do it.
It wouldn't be an exaggeration to call his tendency to tease (and especially the joy he seems to get from it) childish. Hell, it wouldn't be an exaggeration to call Haku childish in general. Even aside from the teasing habits he also has troubles getting out of the bed in the morning (in the typical "five more minutes mom" style when anyone tries to drag him out), he's constantly seen eating candy rather than anything actually nutricional, he leaves the wrappers of said candy all over the place instead of cleaning them up, he's constantly drinking a juice box even in the middle of the most dangerous of missions where it might be a good idea to actually have two hands readily available to do stuff. To not even start about his childish refusal when he's told to get out of someone's bed and back to his own.
Some signs of this already show in his aloofness (like him casually eating candy while important things are going down), but if you get to know him a little better, it's very likely you'll soon start to understand that he's more like a five year old despite his height and age. And it's not too strange for him to be that way to begin with considering his circumstances. As a young child he was left all alone and then taken in by Sakura - not exactly the best way for anyone to grow up, honestly. It left Haku unable to mature without any sort of parental force to guide him, which means he's indeed still like a kid in a lot of ways, or at least more than a little bit developmentally stunted.
It also shows in the way Haku can go from his usual aloof sort of teasing self to a more serious mode. Of course he can't always fool around during missions, since they're often a matter of life and death (and Haku, having lost two Messiah already during them, knows this better than anyone) so he does get a lot more serious and business-like during those. Sure, he'll still drink from his juice box and all, but at least he won't stray from the topic of the mission and be more generally serious. The change is always a little jarring though, like he has to mentally click himself into a more serious state rather than just letting it be another facet of himself. It's possible that because he grew up in such a strange way - a case where he didn't mature but still realised there were some moments that were Important enough to be serious during, so he just adopts a different mindset altogether during those moments.
So even though Haku seems really calm and pretty put together most of the time, that's actually not the case at all. He ended up really stunted because of the way he grew up, and that's not even touching the fact that he's actually not all that happy as he might seem at times. Losing contact with his brother and then experiencing two of his Messiah dying really messed with Haku - and it's what made him go from a pretty normal cheerful kid to the aloof kind of person he is now. He seems afraid of getting close to people again thanks to his "jinx" that makes all of his Messiah die eventually, so he's prone to keeping people at an arm's length, even if they might not consciously realise he's doing it. And you can see the cracks in his aloof facade the moment a few specific topics come up - his jinx, one of the important people to him like his brother or Eiri.. the moment anyone important to him is jeopardized, Haku's emotions seem to show up at all force all of a sudden. It's then that it's shown he's capable of freaking out just like any other person, he usually just surpresses it until he really can't take it anymore.
(It helps that Haku is good at adopting personas because his own personality is so stunted - he's amazing at imitating people, to a point where he can get all of a person's mannerisms and voice pretty much down pat and he's always the one disguising himself if a mission requires one of them to be disguised.)
In fact, he might be even more emotionally volatile than most people. Sure, Haku might not show emotions easily, but when he does, he really goes all the way. The two most promiment cases are in Dou no Shou and Hisui no Shou - in the former Haku seems to shut down fully the moment Higayama has information about his brother's whereabouts, not responding to anything anymore and instead just blankly staring into the distance. And in Hisui, while Eiri is pretending to have died and Haku assumes it really happened, he's noticably more grumpy and tense, to a point where the slightest thing could set him off. He's basically dangerous to interact with during that point because of it. It's obvious that he could be extremely dangerous if left unchecked - it's most likely for this reason that the Northern Union initially tried to recruit him, realising that Haku could be a ruthless and cruel person if pushed in the right direction.
Most of these emotional moments have to do with Eiri (either Eiri or his brother, really), and that's no surprise. Despite his attempts to push the other away at first, Eiri is incredibly important to him and practically a part of him - after Eiri is shot in Dou no Shou, Haku even says that Eiri can't die or a part of his soul would die along with him. At this point Haku has fully accepted Eiri into his life as his Messiah, and it's the most important thing in his life. Eiri balances him out, calms him down, makes him feel like he has a place - there's little he wouldn't do for the other, and he tends to get fiercely protective over him whenever Eiri's life is threatened. (In a movie that's technically not part of the canon timeline, Haku actually grabs a sniper's rifle while it's aimed at Eiri with his bare hands and threateningly says to not kill his Messiah.)
It's no wonder then that Eiri is what Haku gets the most emotional over. And that, combined with just how broken he is from losing so many important people in his life, all come together in one of the final scenes of Hisui no Shou. Haku decides that it'd be better to just shoot himself in the head and kill himself rather than risk letting his jinx run rampant and having Eiri eventually die from it - he breaks down and cries with his own gun pointed to his temple, saying that he doesn't want to see anyone else die because of him anymore.
And this is the true Haku, underneath all the aloofness and teasing - a lonely, sad child, that has already experienced far too much pain and just wants that to end, but doesn't know how to make it stop.
Not that he'll show that easily, though.
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other than the fact that he never seems to get cavities from his way overdone candy consumption. He is however shown capable of throwing his voice enough that he can sound like someone else entirely or imitate other people's voices.Suitability: His issues at his canon point aside (since I'm assuming they'll be smoothed out enough to at least make him normal enough to function early on with Eiri also in the game and especially if they can find a way to meet up), survival in Norfinbury actually won't come all that hard to Haku. Sure, it'll be harsh considering the circumstances, but considering he's actually been trained for this sort of stuff - especially if you consider that their main enemy is basically the Russia equivalent of that world, so being trained on how to deal with cold is most likely the first part of their training schedule. It's very likely that Haku will slip back in a business kind of mindset since it's easier for surviving without dealing with pesky things like emotions. He'll definitely want to explore since he'd be concerned with how they can find their way back home, back to his unfinished business, and having a serious business-like attitude about that would definitely work well for the cause.
But the psychological horror aspect of the game is most likely what will trip him up. At first he'll think he can manage since it's just surviving under harsh circumstances and sure, yeah, they've trained for that, but thanks to just who he is in general and his canon point on top of it, he's extremely emotionally vulnerable and volatile. If the eerie atmosphere and events in the town happen to press just the right buttons, it's not all that hard to get through to Haku and break him down. Cold he can handle, but being faced with certain aspect of his traumas is something he doesn't deal well with at all.
So to sum it up? Initially it probably won't fuck him up too badly (beyond his first canon point issue), but I'm sure the psychological aspect of it will slowly dig its way into his mind - and then it's just a matter of how long he can still try and keep up his business-like mindset.
RP Samples:
network sample:
[ There's a small pause as the feed starts up - like there's something the speaker wants to say, but doesn't. (He's too used to starting reports with date and time, but it's the simple things that always turn out to be a lot harder in this place, and you never realise it until the last moment.) ]
There's a few buildings up north. [ When he does start talking though, the voice is calm and fairly flat - it wouldn't be hard to imagine the speaker's face being practically like a mask of stone, despite the feed itself being voice-only. It's a strange business-like tone, borderline military. Like this is someone who has practiced bringing these reports a little too often. ]
However, they mostly seem useless. There's no supplies to be found in any of them, even though they seem to be regular houses aside from how worn down they are. No food, no water, no electronic devices, not even any vehicles parked outside.
[ All things he's already carefully turned over in his mind, over and over. Food and water to survive, electronic devices and vehicles to try and contact someone outside of this place or try to somehow get past the snow themselves. Haku isn't morally just enough to consider getting to the bottom of what happened in this place to get it like this over returning home so he can deal with his own business.
It might be why he sounds so utterly distant from what he's speaking of, like he's describing the weather in Africa rather than the situation in the current place they're stuck in. ]
I'll only be staying for a little while more to make sure there's absolutely nothing there, but then I'll be moving further north. Don't bother coming to this part of town unless you want to waste your time.
[ There's another small lingering pause. Probably the spot where one would expect some pleasantries, or anything to make this message seem less like it'd be generated by some sort of robot if it wasn't being said in a human voice.
None of the sort follows though. Instead there's just a similarly aloof-- ]
That's all.
[ -- before the feed is manually cut off. ]
prose/in person sample:
Haku wonders if the cold in the Northern Union is anything like this.
He's wondered it more often since he arrived in this place, but now he's left by himself for a moment with the wind and cold howling outside the building he's temporarily claimed as his place to stay for the night, the thoughts start to haunt him all over again. He doesn't mind the cold itself - it's not pleasant by any means, and there's a part of him that longs for his warm candy wrapper-littered bed back at the Sakura headquarters, a place which feels ages from here. But he can survive the cold by just wrapping his coat a little tighter around himself, huddling up against the building's wall after making sure none of the cold is slipping through that.
It's just the thoughts that come with the cold and the temporary loneliness of being by himself like this. He's never dealt well with the latter (no matter what he might have projected about him handling those situations to the outside), and the former has become a sore spot after his encounters with Serizawa-- with his older brother.
His older brother, taken away by the Northern Union. For him. Because he didn't want it to be Haku. The realisation is not as fresh as the first moment he heard it, but it still hurts as much. He can't even be slightly mad at his brother knowing that the other sacrificed himself for him, that it's Haku's fault he became this way. Even now he vividly remembers the other raising his hands towards Haku's face--
I'm the monster you created.
Was this what Serizawa-- no, Sou had endured up north? Had this cold been haunting him every night and day too, chilling his bones until he was hardly capable of feeling anything at all anymore, until it twisted him into a person almost too different from the kind older brother Haku had grown up with..
Haku stares down at his hands, slowly - almost too slowly - taking off his gloves and staring at the pale hands underneath, feeling the cold starting to seep through his skin the very moment it's exposed to the cold air. If he sat here for long enough, experiencing this cold, would he turn into that twisted kind of person too? How much would there be left of him?
More importantly-- would it be enough to atone? While some people might be quick to say none of that had been Haku's fault, that it was his older brother's choice, that he had been too young to understand any of it.. Haku still can't help but blame himself. This matter is about his older brother, after all. The most important person in his life before Eiri loudly entered it instead. How can he not feel guilty for personally causing his suffering?
With a look of almost scientific interest in his eyes, he watches his fingers slowly turn blue from the cold. Like he can't even feel it happen, like the pain doesn't matter beyond the guilt that lingers beyond it. If he froze off his fingers, would that be enough? Would that somehow settle his problems for him?
(It won't, he knows, he knows, he's not that much of a child, he's not that naive. His problems won't just go away like that, but thinking it might be that easy is one of the few things that can keep the threads of his soul together some nights.)
The more his fingers are starting to head to purple, the more a nagging voice in the back of Haku's mind - a very familiar one, since it sure isn't his own - starts to speak up. Even if Eiri isn't right here next to him at this moment, he can still feel his Messiah's judgement from all the way across the snowy fields. Haku can just imagine Eiri calling him an idiot for doing that to his fingers, Eiri dragging him over to the nearest fire he managed to make, grumbling and fussing over his hand the entire time.
It's the only thought stronger than the guilt (it's Eiri, he's always been stronger than any dark feeling Haku could conjure out of the depths of his soul), and after a lot of fumbling with his other hand, Haku manages to slip on the glove once more before he's fully killed off his fingers.
He's tempted to take a sip of his juice box, but it's empty, and there's not enough supplies to waste (and not enough tasty candy, the definite more superficial downside of this snowy town) to pop something into his mouth, even if he does reach over out of sheer habit of wanting to comfort himself with it before he just drops his arm again.
Looks like without the direct comfort of candy (even if that's a little soured by the recent reappearance of his brother back home) or his Messiah being nearby, the only comfort he's going to get tonight is sleep.
A small breath escapes his lips, the tiny cloud showing in the air before vanishing the moment Haku closes his eyes, letting his head drop back against the wall.
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This house has a first floor consisting of a living room, dining room, and kitchen, and a second floor consisting of a bathroom, master bedroom, and an office. What makes it stand out, however, is each room is painted in bright colors. The hallways are bright green, the living room is red, the dining room yellow, the kitchen blue, the bathroom orange, the master bedroom purple, and the office pink.
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